Yesterday I did not leave my floor. But I feel like I am healing now.
Healing thanks to rest.
Healing thanks to the healing power of Neutral Milk Hotel.

Speaking of.

Yesterday I fell completely head over heels for Neutral Milk Hotel.
Don't get me wrong. I have enjoyed them for a few months now.
But yesterday something just clicked making me realize how amazingly powerful they are.
Seriously. Amazing.

And I now throw "In the Aeroplane Over the Sea" up into my top ten favorite albums of all time.

Love you all.

I have the flu. It's pretty awful.
Yeah. I'm sick so I'm going to leave.
But first. Check out my blog.

http://amelioratarians.blogspot.com/

I have 3 new songs up there with a video for one of them.
The songs are for the new Memoirs of a Fallen Bomb album titled
"An Audio Attack On A Visual Existence"
and they just consist of ambient guitar noodling.
It's my second album of this type, the first being "Ambient Guitars"
which was released digitally by My Formica Table and the Long Drive Friendship.

Cool!

1) Do you like blue cheese?
no

2) Have you ever smoked heroin?
gross

3) Do you own guns?
naw

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic?
n/a

5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
nope

6) What do you think of hot dogs?
perfect

7) Favorite Christmas song?
lolz

8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
water

9) Can you do push ups?
yeash

10) Can you do a chin up?
no

11) What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
my dick

12) Favorite hobby?
pot and music and friends and life

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
yeh

14) Do you have A.D.D.
no

15) What is one trait that you hate about yourself?
awkward

16) Middle name?
stanley

17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
what is this show about. frito barbeque chips, of montreal new album

18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
pot, shampoo, orangina

19) Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
mt.dew, coffee, milk

20) Current worry?
grades

21) Current hate right now?
dramz

23) How did you bring in the New Year?
hanging with drunk kali and her drunk friends.

24) Where would you like to go?
see seigmen

25) Name three people who will complete this?
fuck

26) Do you own slippers?
you

27) What shirt are you wearing?
canada: america's hat

28) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
no

29) Can you whistle?
kinda

30) Favorite color?
yellow

31) Would you be a pirate?
no. myself. hippie-ish?

32) What songs do you sing in the shower?
nope

33) Favorite girl's name?
Aurora

34) Favorite boy's name?
Sverre

35) Whats in your pocket?
keys, pot, bowl, wallet

36) Last thing that made you laugh?
muh roomie!

37) Best bed sheets as a child?
tmnt

38) Worst injury you've ever had?
the P.C.

39) Do you love where you live?
worcester yeah. NA no

40) How many TVs do you have in your house?
5

41) Who is your loudest friend?
jon henderson

42) How many dogs do you have?
none =[

43) Does someone have a crush on you?
woudn't you ike to know

45) What is your favorite book?
house of leaves

46) What is your favorite candy?
sour patch

47) Favorite Sports Team?
i hate all them hoes

48) What song do you want played at your funeral?
frost-bite : seigmen

49) What were you doing 12 AM last night?
tv and pot with kali

50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
fuck you 10 o'clock class

gay gay

Alright.

I have been listening to Of Montreal's album "Coquelicot Asleep in the Poppies" a lot lately. There are some fucking masterpieces on there.

It's cool.

Life is boring out here. But horrible some days. Other days it's not so bad.
Today feels like a good day.

Go check out some demos over at
http://myspace.com/footstepsoverflatlands

It's the band of Charles Geer and myself.

I lvoe everybody, and my dick belongs to Kevin Barnes.

Whats on your mind right now?
Boredom

Who is your best guy friend?
Jon and Anthony and Charles and Leighton and Kev H

Where is your biological mother right now?
Worcester!

Have you ever made out in a basement?
Yeah.

Do you have any piercings?
Nope.

Do you have any tattoos?
Nope.

Is your driveway steep?
One is a hill. Muddy.

Name 4 things you did today.
    Studied
    Played SCrabble
    Listened to Of Montreal
    Wrote a Song

Last person you texted?
Don't remember

What have you eaten today?
PB&J

Which shoe do you put on first?
Which ever I pick up first.

What do you get complimented about most?
Hair and Smile.

Do you get distracted easily?
not usually

What's the last text you received say?
I deleted them all

What is the last thing you do before you go to bed at night?
Muh rounds.

Have you ever kissed anyone named Sean (for girls) or Natalie(for guys)?
No.

If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or never wash your hair again which would you choose?
I would not wash sheets. Fuck them. My hair is too pretty though.

First time you kissed the last person you kissed?
September 06

What would you change about your life right now?
Where I am, some of the people I am with, my motivation, a few things.

How do you feel about public displays of affection?
Go for it.

What's the dumbest thing you have done while driving?
Blatantly ran a red light on the way to a TSS show, and Britknee thought it was their fault.

Have you ever bitten your nails?
All the time.

Do you live alone?
At school. I have a roommate.

Do you like someone right now?
Muh Lady

Can you keep a secret?
yepppppp

What was the best year of your life?
None. They all have something good and bad.

Do you have any strange phobias?
Not really. Open/closed spaces?

Your favorite romantic movie is?
Garden State?

Are you happy with your living arrangement?
I don't know.

Have you ever played Twister?
No. Too fat.

Have you ever been drunk at school?
Nope.

Last thing you recieved in the mail?
A Lemonade

Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with a D?
No

Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Yeah.

Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
YEP!

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
all the time

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Mom

Are you a cuddler?
Sometimes.

When was the last time you gave advice to someone?
I don't remember. Used to be more often, now I need it.

What was going through your mind during your last kiss?
"girlie, you gotta stop covering my eyes when I am trying to make my sandwich"

Have you ever hurt anyone when you were mad?
yeah. mentally. not physically.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive. i dont forget.

Do you give out second chances too easily?
depends?

Kiss with your eyes open or closed?
more closed

Do you have a best friend?
a ton

Are you friends with your last ex?
yeah

Do you trust people easily?
yup

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
yeah

Ever had plans and broke them?
yeah

Do you think your recent ex is a player? slut?
haha. she likes to pretend to be.

Do you have a friend of the opposite/same sex that you can talk to 24/7?
a few

Do you remember what you were like a year ago?
depressed as hell

Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
yeah

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
kali

Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?
no

Is it awkward when you run into your ex?
no

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yeah

Who's the last person you had a sleep over with?
Kali.

.What makes a person worthy of your respect?: if they are nice to people.

.Who are at least three people (dead or living) you respect? Why do you respect them?: friends. family. they are great.

.Who do you love?: friends and family

.What is the randomest way you have made a friend?: Not too sure.

.When was the last time you laughed non-stop?: i'm not sure

.So, tell me a joke you've heard recently: "why does beyonce say 'to the left, to the left?' BECAUSE BLACK PEOPLE HAVE NO RIGHTS." via anthony's survey

.What are three moments you kind of wish had lasted just a little bit longer?: conversations. hanging out.

.What do you like to do on sunny days?: stuff? the woods. TRAIN TRACKS.

.What do you like to do on rainy days?: stay inside

.What are three goals you have made for yourself that you know you will accomplish?: I have no idea if I will accomplish anything.

.Do you sing in the shower?: no

.When will you dance?: only to of montreal

.What are three of the most beautiful things you have ever seen?: people. nature. music [as seen by ears]

.What makes you smile?: friends. music.

.What's your favorite flavor ice cream?: vanilla soft serve i guess

.What makes you dislike somebody?: actions that prove them disrespectful in way that is unacceptable to myself.

.Who are three people you do not like? Why don't you like them?: i don't find any reason to answer this

.What is your method of retaliation?: just back off

.Do you enjoy arguments?: no. negative feelings suck.

.What are three things you do not like?: negative feelings, bad people, boogers.

.What pisses you off?: things.

.What is the worst thing you have ever done?: haha. i have done stuff that I don't approve of.

.What are the three most recent illegal things you have done?: pot. train tracks. pot.

.Have you ever been accused of something?: yeah

.Do you take pride in any immoral traites you have (ie: dishonesty, greed, etc.)?: not one bit. nothing to take pride in there.

.How many times do you have to be told to follow the rules?: a few

.Do you ever play by the rules?: i guess?

.Who are three of the shadiest characters of your aquaintance? How are they so?: trmbjg

.What is the strangest thing you have seen?: not too sure

.Who are three of the most annoying people you know?: haha. fuck this. i lvoe muh friends.

.What is the worst thing you could imagine?: negativity everywhere

.What is the best thing you could imagine?: having a life that consisted of music, friends, family, love, and nothing bad.

.What goal(s) do you hope to accomplish by the end of today?: nothing

.the end of the week?: nothing

.the end of the month?: see people

.the end of the year?: same.

.What are three things that comfort you?: msuic, friends, pot.

.Where was the last place you were hurting? Why were you hurting there?: blisters

.Do you have a plan for yourself?: friends. music.

.What are three books that have influenced your life the most?: house of leaves.

.What are three things you want to own, but don't because you're too lazy to get them?: nothing

.What are three things you want to own, but don't because you're too poor to buy them?: musical instruments. seigmen cds.

.Who are three people you want to hug?: firends!

.Who are three people you'd like to know better?: everybody

.Where do you go when you want to be alone?: i am usually alone

.What do you think of your family? Why?: grat

.What are three things you have learned recently?: not really anything. it's a shame.

.How do you process new information?: oddly.

.Do you like to learn new things?: sometimes

.What are three songs you can't listen to enough?: of montreal's "If I was a landscape in your dream" bleh.

.What do you think about death?: w/e

.Do you take risks in your life?: yep

.Give three examples of risks you have taken: girls. drugs. friends.

.What do you want to do right now?: see friends. smoke pot. dance. make music.

You passed out! I can see your personality fading in your own light.
Another drink and another article of clothing to fall of you like a dead leaf.

I like identities but only as they are,
And not after they change by the fluid you swallow
To help you make it through the night,
Make it through the night in an enjoyable mood.

Oh. Alcohol. Are you the destroyer?

Oh my god dude. Seriously.
I have heard four new Of Montreal songs, performed live, via youtube.
They are So good.


Slow Jam
Our Last Summer As Independents
Softcore
Mingusings


Love y'all

With these eyes, I can not imagine what they see compared to those that can see the full spectrum of colors.
That does not bring me down a bit. This springtime unfolding is just as vibrant as a fictional story.
The time has come to go back to just having fun. It's working out pretty well.

Life has reverted! I have been coming along in my personality in a fairly quick manner.
For the good. For the bad. I don't know what to think of who I am becoming, but I know that I like who I am.

Sorrow has been leaking from my soggy shoes for far too long now,
and it's these people that are blowing them drying that show me just how great life really is.

Let's hold hands and hope for the future!
Let's lay hearts in the same twin bed that we have been using for years, and shake a candle at life.

February should not have happen. And March is looking grim. I need a revert. Revert!